What Santa will bring me this year since I've been a ugly+bad girl this year.

i changed my hair style

I don't really like it but I need a change...

Late night stories - Dec. 2011

有人在阳光下吃着甘蔗，享受着乡村生活。

有人在阳光下眯着眼睛，想着那个她爱的人。

而你又在干什么呢？

If I wanna call my studio - DancYing - Amore Dancing

Mi manchi gla' tantissimo... Ti amo!

It's friday today, after work I will go to dance with friends after that I will dance again at home with Ms. Hua. Tomorrow I wanna spend my whole day reading italian then party with friends at night.

Lisa is leaving.

Here is very cold. I don't know how are you doing in India.

I don't want to live my weekend like this anymore

too much party, now I m too tired.

I did enjoy the dancing with lisa, sabrina, mika...

but you were not there.

I m not productive these days.

and i like my friends call me lady baby!

I enjoyed the first snow in town

this year, and you know why.

Was beautiful outside last night.

In Shanghai

hopefully catch the night flight back in tao bc I really miss dancing.

You said

Don't cry for you and I told you I will be strong.

I'm back from jakarta, it's cold here. inside and outside.

In hongkong

It' s cold here and I feel depressed.

I miss jakarta, people there are so nice and friendly. There is always smile on their face. I guess bc they dont ask too much in their life.

I will be home tonight. I have a strange feeling.

I miss you..

Nov. 30th. My birthday.

Tesoro

Tesoro, Come stai? Io bene. Ma da quanto tempo! Oggi è una giorata imortante, il mio primo giorno a Jakarta. Forse mi manchi...buonanotte!

Good night Jakarta!

In hongkong

had a long day alone, goin to jakarta in 20mins. There is no free internet in this town:(

I love the weather today here.

I want to stay here with you and I know you love hongkong too.

sat night, dinner alone in a italian restarant

Tonight, dinner alone.

I love this new italian restarant. the lady is so cute, makes me feel like a friend.

It's goin to be a long long long life, being alone.

Tomorrow night I will have dinner in hongkong.

I wish one day I could tell you "non ti amo più"

you re just 30% italian

friday night, at home.

goin to jakarta on monday. but now i m packing my stuff. i become more n more german. make plans...

just want to relax at home, later watch a movie. then sleep.

I enjoy my life alone.

Re you in love? it's friday!

and for Mario: You re just 30% italian now.

Middle night here

It's really cold now. here...

I just want to hide at home, until now you didnt say anything.

Last night

I had no energy to practise dancing.

I couldnt open my door

I couldnt feel any love from you

I feel so ugly and fat.

I went to bed early...

Today it's raining here. x

Friday here

feel so tired. no energy to do anything, even dance.

Many people left QD today, and you.

I saw people were decorating the christmas tree in big shopping mall.

the weather is sad here. same like my mood.

For no reason or too many reason. I wish I could cry.

He said he might come to see me dance tonight

If his ear is ok.

and he is leaving again. I'm afraid we will not meet for a long time.

I enjoyed my dinner with my colleagues last night. I love salmon.

I enjoyed the dinner with saberina last night in the new italian retarant and also the long converstation.

It's monday here. I hope my ugly cute man is ok with his ear.

2011.11.11 night out

For my cute single man

In case you miss me in india!

2011.11.11

You re not here. and it's friday. sunny, I have another performance tonight.

I miss you! not so much :)

I enjoyed my performance last night.

This is wed 2 weeks ago. we so enjoyed taking pix in lady's room.

Miss 2009

I miss 2009, Oli and Mario. We were so young...

我始终得不到你，可是旁人嫉妒这个世界上有一个你让我如此的疯狂，在我最美好的时光里。

2011,11,1

Hello, Novermber!

If one day, you saw these pix.

will you also think to have a baby with me? even Im so crazy!

tmr is wednesday. yeah! good night Ying!

Raining sunday

It's a raining sunday here. last night I was completed drunk.
People are talking different things about me. of course Im not happy but I should not care.

I don't want to lose myself by others...

again, I m what you see not what they say.

People jealous how much fun we could have when we were together.

今天星期四

昨天星期三，晚上跳了一支舞。和朋友们玩得很high。一直到早上2点回家，一点也不想你。似乎很久很久没有这样的状态了。

今天没有阳光，办公室很冷清。工作却不冷清。

给福利院的小孩子捐了一点点钱，领了一个小娃娃和一个小火车做纪念。

明天就星期五了。

不爱你以后，生活是那么的美好。

He is so cute

wish I could meet him.

a beautiful tuesday here

sunny.

You said you re working hard in India.

even we don't love each other anymore...

I love my cousins...

After Lunch...

People say you re the man for me but Im not the girl for you...

I need something to move my mind...

I decided to go home...

I cannot help myself ...

You asked "How can I help you my darling?"
I replied"Love me dance with me"

....

then I fell asleep, the whole night, I woke up, I checked my phone, nothing from you, immeidately was so disapponted.

and I see it's sunny. sunny here.

What should I do?

I don't know what should I do...

Back in town

Holiday is finished, I'm back in town, I feel a little strange here. I don't know ...

I turned on my old phone actually I don't know why I did it.

Read text messages from last year... from you and others...

I guess I miss you.

I miss dogs from Shanghai.

I miss you

if you can feel it...

Shanghai night

what this crazy dog did to me this morning...

Finally, Shanghai is shining...

What re you doing? Yesterday, mirella and I met a crazy girl at jingmao club...

I like to be alone. doing my thing..

it's hard for me to live with someone else...

I can run faster than Zara this morning.

Last night we went to MINT and xtd also the club obama. met 3 german guys at xtd, they were asking help from me bc one of the guy lost his phone in the taxi. then we spent 2 hours together to look for the phone, calling the taxi hotline...the taxi driver, waiting...

finally he got his phone at 1am, he wanted to give me 100rmb. of course I cannot accept but mirella said I should accept it. that's the european way.

We went back home very late. very tired. still sleepy here...

not sure if I wanna go to dancing class this night. omg. it starts at 7pm...

Yesterday, Shanghai was raining.

I went to this dancing studio and mirella cooked dinner for us.
the weather is not nice here.
I run a lot with the big dog this morning.
Mirella was out with chihuahua.

In Shanghai

In shanghai,

with 3 dogs.

and a big house...

I need lose weight now.

I had a performance in LPG saturday night

Saturday, Hongqiao airport was really quiet. I came back just bc I promised mandy three weeks ago that I will dance for LPG on the3 yrs anniversary.I went home very early. no party, no dirnk...

I went to a coworker's home for dinner last night, was really nice. I loved the conversation between 4 of us.

Kelly n Larry told me that my english has italian accent now.

Happy Monday!

Shanghai & Bund 18

Last night

couldnt fall asleep... after q bar... after...

I don't really miss party, I just miss people who I usually meet on wednesday and dancing~ or maybe just the pole! I just like look at it.

Today, go to Shanghai!

Is there anything in your mind?

The weather reminds me of you

One year... I slept the whole weekend... I did.

I guess every girl wanted to be a pole dancer when they were young... This little girl just wanted to copy all the movements I did... very cute.

Tomorrow is monday. the weekend is so short.

Mooncake 2011

Thanks Felix for cooking me chicken and rice for this special day.

and Thanks Nina for join us the tiramisu! even you picked icecream.

Happy middle autumn fesival and happy birthday mom.

I had 3 mooncake today! so full.

I met your "friend" everywhere is weekend...

but where are you?

我已经想你的时候不会告诉你了，好久好久以后会是什么样子。

我在想，如果有一天你想起了我，会是个什么样子。

爱了就爱了。

Thanks Lisa!

Wish you a happy birthday and ...

...

Pretty woman

Watched pretty woman until 1am, today is cloudy here. a busy office day!

I think I love my job more than before.

and I enjoyed last night the belly dancing! and the biz trip with my coworker on monday!

A very nice beach frisbee day

Biking day

What if i love you...

♥Its hard to wait around for something you know might never happen;

but its harder to give up when you know its everything you want.♥...

from fb.

最后的最后

你变得不那么重要。最后的最后，不重要的人可以变得重要。

最后的最后也能更清楚的看清自己。

More pix about there... I'm back now.

my new friends

Something makes me feel

Life is so hard here.

There are so many single girls around me that they don't need work but still have money to live.

I don't understand... why if I don't work, I dont have money to buy even food.

and Today I work until 23:03. just had dinner. tomorrow I have to catch my flight at 7:45, that means I need wake up at 5.

I refused all the dirty money from my dancing, bars... from different invitation...

It's just a choice, if you want to live in this way then no complain, but why I feel so sad?

life is never fair...

我喜欢今天的阳光

很有夏天的感觉...

现在觉得夏天刚刚开始。

为什么女人们有那么的妒忌？ 特别是老女人？

爱...

我知道，

爱只是一个阶段的事情。

我们都可以爱上一个人，爱得毫无保留，爱得把自己都出卖。

然后爱会输给时间。

有一天，想起这个人，再也没有波澜。

爱原来就是一个阶段，和另外一个人的事情。

与命运有关

却不关未来。

我曾经爱过你 - 普希金

我曾经爱过你

我曾经爱过你：爱情，也许

在我的心灵里还没有完全消亡，

但愿它不会再去打扰你，

我也不想再让你难过悲伤。

我曾经默默无语、毫无指望地爱过你，

我既忍受着羞怯，又忍受着嫉妒的折磨，

我曾经那样真诚、那样温柔地爱过你，

但愿上帝保佑你，

另一个人也会象我一样爱你。

- Pushkin

The back of my wall I wrote:

You are so weak, even cannot face to me and just tell me YOU DO NOT LOVE ME!

Tuesday, it's sunny here !