Happy Halloween

I did a stupid thing this week. I hate it.

I wanna forget it ... It bothered me the whole night last night.

Ying, No more... Please...

Happy halloween !

home now

Im home now.

today so many horny men in Q bar... omg. I was so tired.

I didnt see any cute ones. I dont know why. I hate guys are straight horny... I mean I understand they need a girl but pls be nice and patient.

also a 70+ man wanted to offer me 20 usd to dance with him... my god...

I m home now. so hungry... should I eat? oh I will eat...

Cold here

Just wake up. so cold here... so cold. it's like winter. you can really wear big jacket and boots now.

I had dinner with James last night. was good. we went to this korean restarant in hk garden. had soup. and a piece of cheese cake after dinner.

qingdao's winter = boring

dance tonight at Q bar. also Saturday halloween... so no party on Friday...

it' sunny outside but it's really cold...

I miss you.xxx

-Ying

I hate the weather today

I hate the weather today. it reminds me all the bad things... bad romance...

and it makes me feel winter is soon... then I have to eat like a pig.. gain weight... become a FATtie.

I cannot run bc it's so windy... my skin is so dry... I already had so much rich food...

my god... I hate the weather today.

Kelly's Birthday party

Just back from Kelly's birthday party.

she is sad. jsut broke up with her bf 2 days ago. now it's her birthday. she wanted to cry but cannot and she was so drunk.

That's why I dont really wanna trust man. any man... esp when I saw my girl friends are get hurted by them.



Love is not a good thing. It makes people sad.

I dont want to party anymore. I m tired of it. I dont know why I keep goin out.

Hash run today...


I'm sad. bc there is no man in the world can give me a home and make me feel home...

I'm sad. bc I have to worried about my rental. bills... everything. and I m so poor...

I'm sad. that my roommate has a man. they are having fun downstairs but I m here writing my blog...

my answer is we dont have future ... let's finish it...

Sunny...

Beautiful outside. the end of October, I can still wear my tank top n shorts have a run in the morning.

well. only me dressed like that. people all looked at me but I dont feel cold. it's sunny. and not windy. 20+ degree.

Had a massage with Kelly woo last night. tmr is her birthday. goin to celebrate it in Cassani. the italian restarant. I heard it's really nice there. but I never had anything there. bc a piece of cheese cake is 30rmb, scared of me...

It's halloween again... was in Q this wednesday I saw my last year halloween pix. I didnt really enjoy my last halloween.

still thinking about my costume...

we dont have water at home these days bc the pipe is broken.

I need go to gym to have a shower now.

love.

-Ying

I went to a famous chinese pole dancing school in beijing

was ok...not that good as I thought.

tried the clothing dancing. I think I can do it well.

bye beijing

not in qingdao

Today Im not in Qingdao. lol. bt

I m in a place colder than qingdao :(

Loved this song this morning.

我能给的

- 吴克群

你爸妈劈头问我一句话? 我不回答?

他问我能不能给你一个家?我愣在那

不回答不代表我没有想法?不回答不代表挣扎?

有些事心里明白? 却不能够明讲



我没有车没有钱没有房? 只剩梦想?

但未来的路实在太漫长? 我也害怕

害怕让她陪着我一起闯荡 害怕她空转了时光

所以我不说大话? 怕说的比做的差



有些话不能表达?有些话当时我没有讲?

但是我不会让她陪我累喔?但是我不会让她流眼泪

能给的我都给她?这是我心里没说的话?

就算会累死我都不会怨喔?因为她就是我的全世界???

It just another day

It's just another day, nothing special.. slpet a lot, feeling strong pain... no painkiller...
so I forced me to go to sleep.

Had a lot of cakes... just had dinner in subway... feeling quite lonely. I think it's just bc thursday... and the strong pain.

didnt work today.

so right now in starbucks try to get some work done. nothing is in hurry.

and it's your birthday day today.. I m sure you had a happy birthday. You are so cool. so funny. so popular like a super star.

I hate those black girls talk so loud in starbucks, seems like they wanna everyone know how interesting thing they are talking about. I know one of the black girl there, she couldnt recognize me bc She met me in Q and she wanted take my pole dancing pix. she told me she is a pole dancer too. bt my friends told me she is not... I know Im another person when I m out of Q.

she is too big to be a pole dancer... Im sorry that I m so mean today... strawberry week.

I didn't enjoy my today...

I need lots of money to make me happy.

It Is Boring...

I dont want to say but you can feel it... it's boring...

I can feel it from your phone call... that you dont love me... it's just like your duty everyday... calling me...

I hate it.

and please stop it...bc I m tired of it...

I'm sorry but there is nothing we can change and nothing we can do...

why there is no one wanna stay with me for me ?

A lazy Sunday

I didnt do much today. feeling not good though. wasting my life.

What did I do today?

Lunch - hefei Lu Muslin restarant

Beach - bt didnt play frisbee

Lunner - KFC

Sleep until 9pm

KFC again....

I eat too much kfc today :( not good not good... and no exercise. we can have one day free every week that dont care about food n exercise right?

Going to watch a movie and sleep...

I called my dad today... I miss him now.

-Ying

Today my favourite pix:

Do I wanna travel around without clothes?

My dream was so close to me Today...dancing around the world and making money

This Australia company wanna offer me a one yr working visa to Australian as a dancer.

bt I have to dance as a stripper...

but can I dance without clothes? never tried.. but I dont think I can...

I'm crazy bt there is still chinese thing in me.

I told them if they are ok that I dance with my clothes. I will go to Australia... I said not every gentlemen wanna see straight naked pole dancer.

Am I right?

I think I'm.

Yes. your dream can be so close to you... just one day. one call...

I will keep dancing... maybe one day there is another phone call... Miss Ying, you can dance as a dancer and travel around the world...

sometimes somthing takes time. bt Im positive it's going to be happen soon...

Friday night. going to have a run then work a bit at night. no plans for party...

-Ying

The day after Wednesday

Just back home from Dancing teacing... it's Thursday night here.

after wednesday, I had a long time sleep and did some shopping in old town for Jame's killer party.

Like most time, I enjoyed my performace at Q bar and also met lots of friends. It was fun.

I dont really have a picture about what I m goin to dress up on Saturday. I just bought something that I might need.

I wanna to be a LOVE KILLER.

I spent 1hour in a cafe this afternoon, had a cup of hot chocolate and a cake. it's not cheese cake. I call it nut cake :)

read something - You dont really need to learn something or do something at the time that people think it's right. Just do it when you feel you want to do it...when you feel it's right.

This girl started to learn piano when she was 30. Her mom bouthg her piano when she was 5, but she even didnt want to touch it.

Another girl wanna go back to school when she had enough fun.

...

goin to watch a movie then sleep.

feeling so good at home... in my bed... even I m here alone.

Share some pix.

I l ike her smile. so sexy..and the earing. so cute. I dont think the hair is good on me, bt perfect on her.
I dont really like the drerss. but the shoes is very nice and her hair. I love it.also the background.

This is Gaga style

I like her nail corlor matches her dress pink...:)

love.

-Ying

It's a windy day today

Qingdao is getting cold. today is windy. we didnt really play frisbee but we joined in Frank's volleyball game.

had pizza at Lebang.

so tired now... goin to bed again.

I hate holidays

Slept the whole day...yea that's my holiday...

I feel much much better now but my internet is really slow tonight. I went to a italian restarant tonight. I just wanted to have a piece of cheese cake but they charged me 30rmb... it's almost 3.5 euro... I think... more expensive than in Germany... I didnt buy it...then I went to KFC had 2 egg tart... only 10rmb.

my mind is very clear now. after a whole day sleep, but I will not go out...

I prepared a nice night last night. I did make up -<>. and I was wearing a black short dress... white scarf... Sometimes I really enjoy to make me look good. maybe once a month... most of time I dont care about it...
Here are my last night pix

This is Ying style...

this is very Chinese style
party always ended iN Mcd'

then bed time... with my bear...

I hate holidays that I have to call everyone wish them a happy holiday... people all are went out in the day time... friends are all out traveling...

I hate holidays... it makes me feel I miss my family... this is so not Ying style...

This is Pierre. my friend from the place where speaks English n French...

Someone told me that Im the No1 in his life... 10 mins ago... I think I can go to bed now... feeling good to be No1.

no more drink

no more drink...

If i care too much what they think about me... I will lose my mind...so I dont really care what you think about me... and you...

I just care my mom and dad...

I just feel very tired today... but I didnt do anything....