Tuesday, June 22, 2010

June 22 2010

Support German Team -- World Cup
There is a spider on my back :)



Gage is ready for his swimming class

I met Gage today, so cute, a little bit taller and he loves dance.

I found a place in dt, I will move there the end of June, very excited...

Things are getting better here.

Not really hot here but I know it's summer now.
-Ying

Thursday, June 17, 2010

伤/Six moon



在很久很久以前
你拥有我
我拥有你
在很久很久以前
你离开我

去远空翱翔
外面的世界很精彩

外面的世界很无奈

当你觉得外面的世界很精彩

我会在这里衷心的祝福你
每当夕阳西沉的时候

我总是在这里盼望你

天空中虽然飘着雨

我依然等待你的归期
-莫文蔚《外面的世界》
我一个人在这里工作,不停的听这首歌,今天青岛没有阳光,我不停地吃很多很多。我最近很怀恋我的大学,她们和他们,我常常一个人晚上在家里看大学快毕业的时候我们拍的录像和照片,
我看到时间在自己身上划过的痕迹。还有我受的伤......
在这个六月我受了很多伤,朋友同事的背叛嫉妒,可是我学会了沉默,一个人哭,还有忍耐。我学会了只朝着自己想要的东西努力其他的都无所谓。
在我最低落的时候只有妈妈告诉我就算没有工作她也可以养我。这个世界上应该也只有妈妈可以最大限度的宽容我的不足还有原谅我的错误并且是怀着爱的。
这个六月我受了一些伤...
-Ying

Sunday, June 13, 2010

我一个人躲起来哭








因为发生了很多事情,都可以给我哭的理由,所以我一个人躲在SPR咖啡馆里哭到晚上12点。
上个星期对我来说很困难,我觉得很无助,但是我终于熬过来了,现在生活安定了一些,只是自己寂寞了很多。
因为你无助的时候常常可以更清楚的看清楚朋友。
因为我觉得现实的世界比我想象中的复杂很多所以我觉得自己很无能,但是虽然发生了这么多的事情但是我还是相信生活是美好的。
请你不要再嫉妒了。



Wednesday, June 9, 2010

June 9, Wednesday

It's afternoon here, Sun is light today. I'm moving around the town the past 3 days.

Had an Ayi clean the room this morning, she is not as good as my old a yi, I have to teach her how to clean...

Met Daniele last night, had dinner at crown plaza...the service was nice there... almost the same as Shangri-La. Of course Shangri-La is the best. He gave me a presentation about his company after dinner and I almost fell asleep... but I copied the presentation and going to read it when I have time or when I settled down.

It was nice to talk to him, he told me when he was young he was a trouble maker too... he also had trouble on facebook... but he is mature now so he totally understand me and he still thinks that Im smart girl.

and he knows that people are just jealous of me that's why they gave me troubles.

I went back to my "Home" and cried... I just felt that I slept in different bed the past 3 days...

Thanks my friends that offered me bed when I was /am homeless. I'm happy with me on the other side bc I dont really care about something... and I do care something...


-Ying

Thursday, June 3, 2010

My summer is different this year...







All are the same... sun. beach. diary... still dancing every wednesday...but something is different in my heart...