爱情没有谁对不起谁

只有谁不懂的珍惜谁...

我并不懦弱， 只是在适当的时候给了你一个伤害我的机会。如果我不想，你根本连和我吃饭的机会都没有。

我不想恨你，因为生命太短暂。上天安排让我遇见你一定有他的道理。


I dont really need you... I can dance until I die... with my pole...

You can still make me so happy

I can not believe it...

Here are pix my Christmas...

Finally you went to Q bar... watched my dancing

I dropped my camera off... when I saw you walking in the bar...




We didnt talk so much. I was with my girls. you were with your girls.

You left bar with your girl... that's pretty cool... but you dont really need send a message that you couldn't see me so you left...

I see everything... I just dont want to say anything...

You hurted me so directly...

You said You miss My smile n My happiness to live...

but honey... it's too late...

I feel you different now, there are moments that I really really miss you...like really really.
but...It's here. in this Bar...everybody was so happy...My friend n her bf were so cute together...but you made me feel like nothing... it hurts...

I'm not weak... I just gave you a chance to hurt me. That's it.
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I really enjoyed my last week in the office... It was so cold and also my strawberry week. but my week was full.

I enjoyed my every morning woke up at 6am... and waiting for the driver downstairs...

I had a full day...

I could wake up at 6am and work the whole day... then go to gym... dancing... shopping at 10pm

blogging at 23:15...

hopefully I could fall asleep soon. bc I have to wake up at 5:30 tmr morning...

the driver will wait for me at 7:30 and i NEED 2 hours to get ready...

It's amazing ...

You will not get my msg tonight bc when I thinking about you there is no smile on my face...

-Ying

It's a night like every saturday

Because I dont want to fight... and you dont really deserve it...

I saw it... I trust my eyes..

You are what I see and also what they say...

Dont't be sorry...

Tomorrow is a beautiful day... I knew it...

I feel pretty

after seeing you...

Going to have a run with Malin, then meet Charie&Simone or my aunt... depends on how long my run is goin to take...

Thanks for driving me home this morning...

People are telling me different things about you but I know you could be a great husband

but you don't want...

For this point I cannot help you...

Love

Ying

Alessio

ALESSIO...

It's 23:23 now...

I stay up late recently...for no reason
and I eat a lot ...

winter...

I guess...

wathing crap tv show at home until the next morning... then dance the whole day...

My dream...

I'm waiting for you to kiss me so you can warm me up...

It's not fun here...

Im not lonely... it's just boring...

why can't you see me dance alone...

Today went to Orphanage

visited the angels... havnt been there for a long time. last time was last year... I want to do it often, bc they are so cute... I love kids... and kids need attention...

Boy. why you were not happy with me??

Last time ....

I m eating bread... I dont know why I feel hungry all the time...

What is Love?

....

I couldnt fall asleep last night

bc today is my birthday....

Tomorrow is my birthday

Happy Birthday Ying.

Thanks mom...

Your AM,My PM

It's so cold here... I so want to have your arms around me...

Your am is my pm...

You cannot catch me or I cannot follow you...

I have a good reason to cry

But I dont know why I m not...

reading the text msg you sent to me

makes me smile...

I guess I really miss you...

I hate holidays

Holidays just make me lonely...

I can be happy so easily

just good food + dancing...

have good food and make sure there is a good place for me to practise dance...

人们虚假又造作。。。

星期六

一个有阳光的周六。我好困，想睡觉。早上的时候和kelly一起有跑步。回家就好累。
我想是因为昨天练习跳舞的时间很长。所以太累吧。

我没有出去晚。昨天晚上。睡得像是一头小猪。

今天我就想在家里。什么也不做。晚上的时候出去见我的朋友们。

想你。在这里。

你在和谁在一起呢？

Today I tried very hard

working on this italian website. I hope Luca is happy with me a little bit now.

strawberry week. I still danced last night. I thought I could stop dancing for one wednesday. but I couldnt.... I m used to it...

too much pain. but I only used 2 pain-killers. Im trying hard to anti all the pain-killers...

I want to have a run later tonight. I cannot stop exercising...

I miss you.

-Ying

I didnt know how much I loved you

until last night...

I cannot lose you...

I just cannot believe it

I just cannot believe it that you think I treat you like a dog.... and you think I m a play girl...

I dont like it. you should at least take me out for another dinner. lol for your "sorry".

H, I miss you, too bad that I cannot feel your love. even I'm so sure you love me a lot a lot...

I enjoyed the fish with you

last night in that " cheap Italian restarant... and I had the worest mojito... thank you. and you know I dont like you even you tried to be so nice to me...

You don't know

that I missed you so much...

I ate a lot tonight and I have performance later

so I decided to have a run after this blog.

I had big problem on my neck. I never had it... maybe it's bc I m getting old.

Talked a lot with my baby brother. was really nice converstation. I cannot get along with my family, bc they left me when I was 3. but this afternoon. the conversation between me n brother was nice. no fighting... no shouting...

I wish I could live with my dad for one week without fighting and shouting.

I do miss them...


Yesterday dancing pix.

Monday dancing pix - practising.

he has been slept in my bed for 2 yrs...I take him everywhere. I dont knwo why I just love his face.. so cute. like a little baby gets serious angry. lol

Going to run now.

Love.

-Ying

we can be happy toether without

Sex



oh... I m just crazy.

but I'm not bad.

It's sunny here

Just had dinner with my friend

and her boy... he paid :) I loved the mushroon thing. He is a sweet n nice korean. lol.

and I ate a lot. so from tmr I wanna have a plan for my weight control in winter.

my birthday is coming soon... Dont know if I wanna celebrate it or not.

Qingdao is autumn now...
My brunch in The Dinner...

I was so drunk again last night. too drunk so I cried again. I still dont know why I always cry when I m drunk.
my lovely friends.

Love

-Ying

“女人是听觉动物

所以我说情话”

I went to hhh run this afternoon. was good bt I didnt really run a lot. I walked the whole way:)

I pratised my dancing this morning. 1.5 hours. was really good.

here are pix today.

I miss you

I miss you ... bc I dont know what I can do

I ate so much... like a pig...

I want to cry

I want to go out but I know you will not be there...

Bc I miss you so I dance with my pole hours and hours...


I just miss you... that's it. and I know this feeling will gone one day. I just want to enjoy it this moment.

This moment it's for you.

-Ying

Goin to dance

I cut my long dress short tonight. bc I wanna wear something new bt I dont have any new dancing dress.

You will see how it looks like soon...

Maybe not only you love me in this world.

-Ying

Love is a strange thing...

Love is a strange thing...

Happy Halloween

I did a stupid thing this week. I hate it.

I wanna forget it ... It bothered me the whole night last night.

Ying, No more... Please...

Happy halloween !

home now

Im home now.

today so many horny men in Q bar... omg. I was so tired.

I didnt see any cute ones. I dont know why. I hate guys are straight horny... I mean I understand they need a girl but pls be nice and patient.

also a 70+ man wanted to offer me 20 usd to dance with him... my god...

I m home now. so hungry... should I eat? oh I will eat...

Cold here

Just wake up. so cold here... so cold. it's like winter. you can really wear big jacket and boots now.

I had dinner with James last night. was good. we went to this korean restarant in hk garden. had soup. and a piece of cheese cake after dinner.

qingdao's winter = boring

dance tonight at Q bar. also Saturday halloween... so no party on Friday...

it' sunny outside but it's really cold...

I miss you.xxx

-Ying

I hate the weather today

I hate the weather today. it reminds me all the bad things... bad romance...

and it makes me feel winter is soon... then I have to eat like a pig.. gain weight... become a FATtie.

I cannot run bc it's so windy... my skin is so dry... I already had so much rich food...

my god... I hate the weather today.

Kelly's Birthday party

Just back from Kelly's birthday party.

she is sad. jsut broke up with her bf 2 days ago. now it's her birthday. she wanted to cry but cannot and she was so drunk.

That's why I dont really wanna trust man. any man... esp when I saw my girl friends are get hurted by them.



Love is not a good thing. It makes people sad.

I dont want to party anymore. I m tired of it. I dont know why I keep goin out.

Hash run today...


I'm sad. bc there is no man in the world can give me a home and make me feel home...

I'm sad. bc I have to worried about my rental. bills... everything. and I m so poor...

I'm sad. that my roommate has a man. they are having fun downstairs but I m here writing my blog...

my answer is we dont have future ... let's finish it...

Sunny...

Beautiful outside. the end of October, I can still wear my tank top n shorts have a run in the morning.

well. only me dressed like that. people all looked at me but I dont feel cold. it's sunny. and not windy. 20+ degree.

Had a massage with Kelly woo last night. tmr is her birthday. goin to celebrate it in Cassani. the italian restarant. I heard it's really nice there. but I never had anything there. bc a piece of cheese cake is 30rmb, scared of me...

It's halloween again... was in Q this wednesday I saw my last year halloween pix. I didnt really enjoy my last halloween.

still thinking about my costume...

we dont have water at home these days bc the pipe is broken.

I need go to gym to have a shower now.

love.

-Ying

I went to a famous chinese pole dancing school in beijing

was ok...not that good as I thought.

tried the clothing dancing. I think I can do it well.

bye beijing

not in qingdao

Today Im not in Qingdao. lol. bt

I m in a place colder than qingdao :(

Loved this song this morning.

我能给的

- 吴克群

你爸妈劈头问我一句话? 我不回答?

他问我能不能给你一个家?我愣在那

不回答不代表我没有想法?不回答不代表挣扎?

有些事心里明白? 却不能够明讲



我没有车没有钱没有房? 只剩梦想?

但未来的路实在太漫长? 我也害怕

害怕让她陪着我一起闯荡 害怕她空转了时光

所以我不说大话? 怕说的比做的差



有些话不能表达?有些话当时我没有讲?

但是我不会让她陪我累喔?但是我不会让她流眼泪

能给的我都给她?这是我心里没说的话?

就算会累死我都不会怨喔?因为她就是我的全世界???

It just another day

It's just another day, nothing special.. slpet a lot, feeling strong pain... no painkiller...
so I forced me to go to sleep.

Had a lot of cakes... just had dinner in subway... feeling quite lonely. I think it's just bc thursday... and the strong pain.

didnt work today.

so right now in starbucks try to get some work done. nothing is in hurry.

and it's your birthday day today.. I m sure you had a happy birthday. You are so cool. so funny. so popular like a super star.

I hate those black girls talk so loud in starbucks, seems like they wanna everyone know how interesting thing they are talking about. I know one of the black girl there, she couldnt recognize me bc She met me in Q and she wanted take my pole dancing pix. she told me she is a pole dancer too. bt my friends told me she is not... I know Im another person when I m out of Q.

she is too big to be a pole dancer... Im sorry that I m so mean today... strawberry week.

I didn't enjoy my today...

I need lots of money to make me happy.

It Is Boring...

I dont want to say but you can feel it... it's boring...

I can feel it from your phone call... that you dont love me... it's just like your duty everyday... calling me...

I hate it.

and please stop it...bc I m tired of it...

I'm sorry but there is nothing we can change and nothing we can do...

why there is no one wanna stay with me for me ?

A lazy Sunday

I didnt do much today. feeling not good though. wasting my life.

What did I do today?

Lunch - hefei Lu Muslin restarant

Beach - bt didnt play frisbee

Lunner - KFC

Sleep until 9pm

KFC again....

I eat too much kfc today :( not good not good... and no exercise. we can have one day free every week that dont care about food n exercise right?

Going to watch a movie and sleep...

I called my dad today... I miss him now.

-Ying

Today my favourite pix:

Do I wanna travel around without clothes?

My dream was so close to me Today...dancing around the world and making money

This Australia company wanna offer me a one yr working visa to Australian as a dancer.

bt I have to dance as a stripper...

but can I dance without clothes? never tried.. but I dont think I can...

I'm crazy bt there is still chinese thing in me.

I told them if they are ok that I dance with my clothes. I will go to Australia... I said not every gentlemen wanna see straight naked pole dancer.

Am I right?

I think I'm.

Yes. your dream can be so close to you... just one day. one call...

I will keep dancing... maybe one day there is another phone call... Miss Ying, you can dance as a dancer and travel around the world...

sometimes somthing takes time. bt Im positive it's going to be happen soon...

Friday night. going to have a run then work a bit at night. no plans for party...

-Ying

The day after Wednesday

Just back home from Dancing teacing... it's Thursday night here.

after wednesday, I had a long time sleep and did some shopping in old town for Jame's killer party.

Like most time, I enjoyed my performace at Q bar and also met lots of friends. It was fun.

I dont really have a picture about what I m goin to dress up on Saturday. I just bought something that I might need.

I wanna to be a LOVE KILLER.

I spent 1hour in a cafe this afternoon, had a cup of hot chocolate and a cake. it's not cheese cake. I call it nut cake :)

read something - You dont really need to learn something or do something at the time that people think it's right. Just do it when you feel you want to do it...when you feel it's right.

This girl started to learn piano when she was 30. Her mom bouthg her piano when she was 5, but she even didnt want to touch it.

Another girl wanna go back to school when she had enough fun.

...

goin to watch a movie then sleep.

feeling so good at home... in my bed... even I m here alone.

Share some pix.

I l ike her smile. so sexy..and the earing. so cute. I dont think the hair is good on me, bt perfect on her.
I dont really like the drerss. but the shoes is very nice and her hair. I love it.also the background.

This is Gaga style

I like her nail corlor matches her dress pink...:)

love.

-Ying